1st one.

There are so much things in my head, I dont even know where to start.
Its been 5 years since i wrote a blog, now I'm starting again. I thought it'll help me straight things out in my head, atleast.

My family & I used to live in San Diego, things weren't the best& my parents weren't living together, but I'd rather have that than what I have right now. Before, my Dad lived out here in Arizona, for work & my mom brothers and I stayed out in SD. Now we're all here, living in the same roof.. yet it feels like everyone has their own thing. Every weekday I get off school, its always the same routine. I see my mom in her room, my dad not home& at work. My brothers either not there or somewhere in the house. I barely notice them.
Its no hey or hi.. anything, its just you going straight to your room, eat whenever you're hungry, come out whenever you want to.. We all barely talk, It's so different. It feels like I'm living in a dream where I dont wanna be at, that its so impossible to believe that my life had turn out like this. I just wanna wake up. The only days that I look forward to is when I go down to San Diego, its not that perfect.. because my family isn't there, yet.. It's still my home.